The beginning.

I was born on January 21 1986 in Seoul, South Korea and I was adopted to Sweden on July 8 1986.

I was given the name Eun Young Chang in Korea and I spent my first months in a foster home.

I've had a great childhood and upbringing, nothing but the best.

However, I have a feeling that I can hardly describe, of something missing, lacking, and unknown, probably similar to many fellow adoptees.

I'm fortunate enough to have a bunch of papers and information about my first 6 months and about my birth parents. A search would probably not be hard to do and the collaboration between the Swedish adoption agency and the SWS in Korea is well developed and there's a clear structure of how to proceed and go through with a search.

Probably, this frightens me to some extent. You hear of searches that take years and because of it you're given time to process, I'm concerned about the fact that my search might only take a couple of months and I don't know if I'm quite ready to discover all that it might bring.

All I would really have to do is pay the fee of 3000 SEK + some extra fees and off I go.

I'm not quite there yet.

In the meantime I'll share my thoughts with you in this blog while exploring the Korean Culture and gathering information that hopefully will bring me closer to being prepared for this life changing experience.